Something New...

     I was sitting inside today.  Thinking.  And I got bored and restless and anxious.  So I decided to get up and go.  So I went.  I walked out the door and never came back.  And as I walked through a field of wheat on this cool spring day, I realized that the foundation that I had building my life on was crumbling.  I was restless.  I needed to go somewhere.  No more sitting inside and thinking.  Well, at least, no more sitting inside.  I needed to do something.  Take a chance.  Be firm and decided about something.  So I got up and left.  I walked out the door and never came back.  And as I walked along the shore on this warm summer day, I realized that for a long time I've been riding the fence.  I was scared.  I was unsure.  I needed to do something.  So I decided to go on a journey to somewhere new.  Something new.  So here I am, sitting on this rock in the middle of this river.  Wondering where to go, what to do.  Still sitting and thinking.  Wondering.  Restless.  Anxious.  And well, the problem is...well...I'd like someone to go with me.  But I'm not sure how that works.  And I'm not sure who would come with me.  And I realize that this whole thing sounds like a giant metaphor for where I am in my life right now.  But it's not.  It's just nonsense.  And as I walk through this dense forest today, I realized that it's all nonsense, that I'm still at home thinking, sitting in front of my computer, listening to Noah & the Whale, looking at my sister sitting on the other couch, still waiting for something new.